Do I Remember It?

I've wondered, "what's wrong with me, what did I do, what do I do?", nothing's wrong I said to myself. But why so hard to me to have my people. my people, people who I can trust the most, people who I can depend on, people who I can be myself without pretending and fake smile when I'm around them. Because the more I think and the more I want them, the more they disappoint me, and as time goes by, I trust a little less and a little less, and that's suck. If there's nothing I do wrong, then is it just who always act like that? Or am I just not good enough to deserve their loyalty, their time, their struggle? Astaghfirullah, may Allah give His patience for me. While I gave them my time and my trust, they let me down. Remember it as life lessons, that people come and go, that you're not supposed trust to everybody because clearly they don't deserve it. And remember that what goes around comes around. That they will not get as good as I get. Just do good deeds, no matter what people do or think, because Allah always sees and hears and remembers...